Well, tomorrow I might officially be able to tell Brad Pitt fare thee well. As of now, I’m currently sitting in a bar. Yes, I know it’s Thursday. And that I have to wake up in 8 or so hours. But I’m sipping my blackberry pear cider and watching soccer recaps when there’s sleep to be had and to be frank, I barely understand soccer. Why am I here? Because today one of my clincal members watched someone get hit by a car and die. It wasn’t me, wasn’t someone I’m close to. But as nursing students, it’s the accidental deaths that rock you. The people we’re going to be dealing with at least had some time to prepare or knew it was coming at some point. But this man was jogging. Just going for a run and got hit by a damn taxi. It reminds you death is swift and sudden, not just prolonged and unexpected.
Today, a different girl in my clincal broke down in our small group because of stress. We’re all stressed. But everyone deals differently. I bottle it up (unhealthy, yes) but she just bawled. And everyone supported her. It was amazing. This somewhat made me uncomfortable. Not for her. But I don’t like being out of control. I loathe it. It’s my greatest fear. So she wasn’t in control.
And nothing bad happened.
Nothing.
So my world was rocked today. Not in a noticable way, but just enough to unnerve me. Me and two friends went out to ice cream after lab (incredible. Incredible.) and I just wasn’t ready to go home yet. I needed to process. Becausr today, I had a wonderful day. I had a lovely walk in beautiful weather, met a cute guy, did well in class, and laughed a lot. I’ve been laughing more and I’ve rediscovered my faith and because of that, my peace. I’m happy. But that man’s family may not know what happened to him still. And my friend who cried is restragetizing her approach to school. Someone had a miracle today. Some had tragedies. And today, that circle of life thing really hit me. So I’m sorry this isn’t funny or clever or me, but this is me mental wandering.
As always,
Aurora
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