My mom is the best mom ever. She’s the main reason I want to have kids someday. So today I sat down and thought about what I could say to my future kids. I can’t tell them how I met their father because I don’t know yet. But here the jist of what I want to tell them.
Dear Beloved Baby,
I don’t know you yet. I don’t know when or if I’ll ever have you. What I do know is that I love you already. I don’t know if you’ll be a scholar, athlete, musician, artist, or any combination of the four or something that hasn’t even been invented yet. I don’t know if you’ll look like me or if you’ll have my genetic quirks. I don’t know how many temper tantrums you’ll have, but I do know you’ll have them. I know I won’t be as perfect a mom as I want to be and I know the whole time I’ll be scared my actions would land you in therapy. I know you might get mad at me when I tell you no. Just know I love you, even now, years before I meet your father (if I haven’t yet), years or decades before you exist. I love you with ever fiber of my being. I chose nursing over medicine so I would be able to be there with you more, so the debt would not separate me from being there and present in your life. I want to be there for you ever step of the way. I never want to miss a moment. I want to be there when you lose your first tooth, to be there to bandage you up, whether it be a serious thing or just startled. I want you to never, ever doubt that you are loved and that I would do anything for you. I love you so much my dear child and you don’t even exist yet. I will always be there and nothing, not death, finances, anger, tragedy, or disagreeing with my disbeliefs will ever stop me from loving you. Even if you never exist, I will still love you. I want to do well in school not just for me, but for you. Your life will be better for every good choice I make. I want you to have it all, everything and anything. I want you to value people over things and know the value of hard work and its rewards. I want you to laugh, to love, and to know joy. I want you to learn that true strength is not letting the tragedies of life taint your spirit and how even in the darkest of times, God is always there and has a plan that is far better than we can imagine. I want you to know the bitter are the ones who are scared of being looked over again or hurt again and how they need to be shown love. Remember no person is better or worse than each other, they each have their own battles and demons. Always show and demonstrate kindness, it is free and can mean the world to someone. I know that it does for me. I want you to be able to come to me about anything and everything. There so many other things I can’t even think of now, but just know that no matter who you are, I already love you.
Love,
Your future Mommy
Eccentric Elephants 